Paradox challenges the orthodox, but paradox is not achieved in thought, for paradox is about the ‘union of opposites’ and as Tom Chetwynd ©1982 correctly states in his Dictionary of Symbols Thorsons edition 1998 p314,
“The UNION of opposites cannot be achieved by the Thinking FUNCTION, or the Conscious Ego, which always stands opposite the Unconscious, where everything is reversed as in a  MIRROR. Paradox expresses the two sides of life and nature, which are double-sided, double-edged, both conscious and unconscious. These two sides can only be reconciled through will and action, when Conscious and unconscious work in unison, with the Ego related to the higher SELF. Paradox is despised by the intellect, but prized by the whole person. By holding both sides of truth in conscious opposition, paradox can become the agent of their union. It stays rather close to the feminine archetype of Life, rather than the masculine archetype of Logic. It has a value in expressing intuitions about the Future and in relating to the UNKNOWN.

Paradox was of particular importance to the ALCHEMISTS, who used it to describe their Philosopher’s Stone, the goal and product of their labour: Their work was to heal the SPLIT in consciousness first by clearly differentiating the opposites and then by expressing both sides in one breath.”

My whole life’s work is as a living paradox. My blogs bear witness to my ability to counsel across apparent divisions with a diagnostic method that can bring opposing sides together. My life journey, through almost impossible failure, change and survival is one of alchemy and spiritual attainment that intellects can find difficult to understand, that I have found difficult to make practical and relevant.

My book written in 1997 is from the place of the magister, another word for the Philosopher’s Stone mentioned by Chetwynd.

All of this becomes clear to me as a necessity of this work, to try to be of service, to be able to withstand the forces that range against me and vitalise those forces that are inclined to support.

My message of stuck-addiction© is I see now an effort to find a portal to be of service as a living agent of change, a catalyst to enable a resolution to apparently intractable problems, but that the intellectual opposition to my efforts is not imaginary.

I am being drawn to make another concentrated effort to deliver my abilities to the places where there is the possibility of success in areas of individual and group therapy as well as support for a wider systemic consultation process to be a catalyst for arbitration and innovation.

There can be some very interesting and passionate notions about the apparent difference between God the transcendent and God the immanent, so far as a person can experience states conducive to holding an actual notion about such matters at all.

Immanent is an easy word, it has a sense of pervading everything, of being inherent in all of life and capable therefore of being experienced.

Transcendent has a sense of being beyond, of going beyond the usual or inherently measurable or experiencable forces of conscious awareness.

Thus the ‘para’ normal is riven into the word transcendent.

Yet, the words ascend and descend are defining boundaries that set the points across which the word transcend cannot escape from, nor go beyond.

So, the word transcendent simply connects the highest and the lowest possibilities of mortal awareness, of Human consciousness.

That this function of connecting Heaven and Hell is seemingly paranormal when the normal is to suffer being divided and ruled, goes some way toward explaining the arguments around God’s transcendent and immanent singularity. However, for one who is granted the function of being so perfected inherently by God in this world, that their practice has made them perfect receptors of the infinite variabilities of the immanence of their life, then for them to deny the transcendence of God would be as impossible as their denying a sunrise across a morning mist.

The paradox then connects seemingly irreconcilable opposites that the orthodox can only argue to keep apart.

Thank you for reading this post.

Globalised Resentment

From this way of dealing with the press and of attacks by Trump about his birth, Obama fires his barrage against his view of fake news and of Trump.

The power of resentment is apocalyptical in cases where the holders of deep resentments already have access to huge mundane power. Resentment is the tap root of all forms of spiritual illness. Global stuck-addiction© is the bellwether spiritual illness attending the digitally driven era-change.

These two men have spawned the political manifestation in plain sight, of the disease that actually infects the whole planet.
We now have a full resentment based presidency of the global Empire.

Diagnosis of a disease is essential if the energy to heal is to be accessed. The answer to this is no longer political, no longer even a matter of intellectual will, the antidote to a spiritual malady is spiritual.

This has been the reality of the 12 Step phenomenon over the last 80 years, a reality that means that we now have an articulation point that says that we are all living inside an addictive system.

At the head of this addictive system, the drama of this video has played itself out. During the video you will see Trump rocking backwards and forwards ever so slightly as Obama’s words land in his core.
We now all live, materially at least, in Trump’s revenge.

This is not a sustainable place to live.


“I cannot stress to you enough the importance of being present”.

So, ‘stress’ is a deliberate impression made by someone or something upon a person, it is an emphasising. Can this definition inform any other applications of the word ‘stress’ in order to try to unlock destructive stress at the emotional level of experience.

To liberate is to set free. To deliberate, is to weigh up contraries, to think, to plan, to corale energy into an enclosure, to put experience and knowledge into a harness away from their being free to roam apparently without will.

This can cause stress for a personality, especially when that which seems to be happening to a person from their perspective, is as if life itself is doing things deliberately against them, removing conditions that might seem to be more liberating.

When these projections of imaginings that are is if events are being deliberately planned by life are made around events that are clearly more arbitrary than specific, then this is stress that is an illness.

Love is a deliberation by and from God, just as Rumi said, ‘love is bondage willingly accepted by the free’.

It is Iblis that refused to be deliberated upon by God and in that refusal, then tries to play God by taking away the only source of true deliberation in the Universe away from Mankind by seducing them into thinking that they’re at liberty to think that God is just a thought, i.e. the erroneous and separated “I think, therefore I am”.

In fact then, only God can deliberately act and only God can say “I am”. This was respected in the old Way when the expression “I am” was never uttered by people of the Way. The Christ Jesus only said it by then taking his own “I” out of the matter as was befitting of His expression of Union as He says, “I am who am”.

When people do deliberate, then act deliberately upon those preparations, it is a measure of sanctity to be aware of how much one is part of that ‘willing’, or how much the doing seems to be taking care of itself. Sportsmen talk about being ‘in the zone’ to try and express the disappearance of the second “I” as we move from the ubiquitous “I am who I am”, into the Christ reality of “I am who am”.

“I am who I am” is containing two “I” components, this is di-stressing, whereas, “I am who am” is the vehicle of divine stress, the proper creative, constructive stress as the duality of matter submits to the building plans of One God, The Almighty Architect.

These insights can be arrived at personally as promised by The Christ Jesus and the template for such an arrival, for such a birthing of insight is encoded in the Nativity Story itself when the left hemisphere is Joseph, the right hemisphere is Mary, the arch connecting the then whole brain is Gabriel, the body is the donkey.

Whatever the appearance of the script, whether seemingly sacred or profane, temporal or spiritual, whatever the script of that which is selling the idea of liberty, the thought of liberation, if it is a script that is without recourse to the utter Pole Star of the One Source from which all arrives, then the result eventually, even after the jolt of apparent change, the result of such scripted liberation is inevitably one of calamity and distress.

The distress around the globe today has only one antidote, the distress has to be transformed into stress. This is the alchemy of Sufism, within which Way The Christ Jesus, Isa, is King. This is the transformation of pain into joy, of despair into repair, of terminal duality insulated once again to mediate the flowing of One Life, One Love, One Humanity.

Because only God deliberates, only God liberates.

Marbles – lost and found

To ‘lose one’s marbles’ is an interesting expression of the glue that provides the cohesion for an inner diction, somehow weakening to the point of a person or even a system, then becoming ‘de-mented’.
I quite understand that over the past few years, there are times when my posts and seemingly arcane neurology around making connections between individual illness and a collective illness, may have rendered me open to folks thinking that I must have lost my marbles.
I am grateful therefore for the people who have stuck around through my meanderings, even if their personal reputation forbade them from making any deeper endorsement of my message, beyond that of being simply ‘linked’.
To challenge orthodoxy is a lonely business and as the Sufi master rightly said, “you are your own barrier, rise above it”. Even though I know that I block myself with character defects from securing material success in the areas that I seem to want to communicate within, I also hold onto a deeper timing and a higher supervision.
A definition of God by a CIA source is purportedly one of ‘that which unexpectedly thwarted their plans’.
This pragmatism from the world weary global management scheme as it reported their Divine Interference Experience (DIE), is put into a frame nicely by the words of a UK senior politician of the late twentieth century, Denis Healey:
“World events do not occur by accident. They are made to happen, whether it is to do with national issues or commerce; and most of them are staged and managed by those who hold the purse strings”.
So, the CIA source was hinting at the Unseen Government that seems to be able to override the ruling power of an era, just as has been recorded in all scriptural records.
The present Empire, despite its claims that everybody else is the Empire, has dominated the last 100 years with the usual mix of both openly orthodox and hidden clandestine methodology.
Their DIE as it tempered their plans has been part of their journey, of all global journeying to this point.
My message of the correlation between, what Scott Peck called the ‘sacred disease’, addiction in the individual, and stuck-addiction© in global systems, is a DIE that now is cast.


In the bureaucracy of religion
There are quotas:
These are limits for fishing,
Boundaries for trawling
Through interminable stories
Looking for the big catch,
The quote to bolster,
Bludgeoning resistances
To particular points of view.
The quota of quotes
That are quoted as moats
Around the castles
Of important reputation,
Are they now filled?
How now to fill the nets
To satisfy the hoovering ships
Of industrialised academia?
Is there nobody I can quote but me,
Nobody I can gather to justify
My sole offence,
The offending record of a soul
Defending the fending off
Of pain inflicted by a broken mart?
Quotation marks,
The double comma’s flight
Of fancy above the commas’
Ordinary lines of action.
The extra ‘m’ that wakes the comas
With a startled shout of insight,
“Let sleeping dogs lie”,
Until their shown estimate,
Quotation, of themselves
Becomes accepted as their own,
Ibid “all glory, laud and honour”,
Returns them safely home.


A break is a brake
Upon the wheel
The weal that marks
The place of contact
The meeting
Of perception
With events of form.
To make a stand
Resists a flow
Into we’ll or won’t
Amidst rulers’ news
That never measured
Anything straight
Forward, ever.
Peace, the mark of
Authentic being
Is made
Then kept.
I keep the piece
Given to me
Within One whole
As mine
Not to give away as peace
But as a way
To pass my understanding.
I understand
What is that you say again?
Ah, yes, I understand.
How, how do I understand, you say?
By standing under,
By being under,
By knowing who I’m under,
By subsisting.
Love is my subsistence
Out of which
Existence appears insistent
Yet, persistence shows
That assistance happens
When least expected,
Despite resistance in oneself
To disbelieve,
Belief appears, again

The Human

From the verb “be”, comes the word “being”.
There are not many beings on this planet who are permanently manifesting their Human beingness with presence and conscious witness.
There are flashes of Human beingness amidst the behavioural gardens of Mankind, but mostly there are a range of beings within Mankind that pay lip service to the term Human.
There are money beings, political beings, career beings, gender beings, nationalist beings, religious beings, academic beings, instinctive beings – very few people who are Human, being a person.
In front of our global noses there is a spiritual battle unfolding without any analysis of the actual conditions.
In the last US leadership election there were no spiritual voices in the debates.
Everywhere the common perception of spiritual force, ie religion, is conveniently discredited. Nowhere can the Trump phenomenon be accurately assessed spiritually for fear of seeming medieval or fanatical.
Yet, the integrity of the intellectual assessments of current affairs risks being broken down by the asymmetric vortex that is being deliberately manufactured by Trump and his intimates.

Message from The Cloud

“1. The UK Unions became corrupted by attaching themselves to Labour after deep money infiltrated their ranks at the beginning.
2. This corruption finally collapsed the UK Unions as they collapsed the Labour government of Callaghan and opened the door to Thatcher.
3. After Thatcher determined that the Executive should never be challenged by organised workforces ever again, she brought in The Parent Charter, The Patient Charter and The Passenger Charter. Health, Education and Transport were the three areas that could paralyse the Executive. Thatcher disintegrated the hitherto flawed yet integrated Health, Transport and Education services, setting school against school, NHS Trust against Trust and dismantling Council transport as well as National Rail Services.
4. Thatcher went too far, as macro power always does. Blair was voted in within the blunt sanity of the UK democracy with a huge majority to restore the real middle ground by reining in Thatcher’s excessive Union culling. Blair hung up the democratic pendulum, he then had to break language and spin words to pretend to be a partisan corrective as the electorate had at a deep level expected.
5. This Union destruction started by Thatcher and completed by Blair, eventually nearly destroyed the Union of Great Britain in a recent referendum and has destroyed the European Union aided and abetted by the US who want no Union except their States.
6. Blair in his torment of guilt that he did not “do God” whilst in Office, a guilt which pushed him into the confessional of a Roman Catholic conversion against the Constitutional UK theocracy that is led by The Queen, and then into a global Faith exercise, now wants to ride back into the limelight to save a Union!
7. This is simply the spiritual illness of stuck-addiction© that has collapsed the global Executive manifesting in all of its increasing cunning manipulations of the insanity of, doing the same thing expecting a different result.”

The above Facebook response to a Guardian article about Tony Blair railing against the collapse of the European Union, when speaking from his ‘Faith Foundation’, exposes the attempted power grabs and the spiritual bankruptcy that renders such grabs now doomed to failure both here in the diseased Unions of Great Britain and Europe as well as, eventually the diseased Union of the American States that is the US Empire.

All states of Union take their power to form in the first place from an attempted Union with God.

My work, as a person in Union with God, is to address this deep dislocation of language that is playing out in the global catastrophe that is exercising the global media so much that people generally cannot see the wood for the trees.

I do not know whether I can succeed, only God knows, my job is to simply carry my message in this cloud.

Irrevocably Conscious

Man proposes, God disposes

Mankind is a proposition

God is a disposition

Mankind is precious

Humankind is conscious

Consciousness is a position in conscience

Union is a marriage arrived at after a successful proposal

I proposed to God, God accepted my proposition.

Inconsciousness is to consciousness

As infinity is to finity. 

The Last Ammo Box

In the UK pre-Thatcher, the Unions became corrupted and in their overpolticisation opened the portal to Thatcher.
Who opened the portal to Trump?
The entities he most rails against, the media, closely followed by other “so-called” leadership functions, political and judicial.
Trump is here now, he may be impeached, he may not. The conglomeration of power that inevitably now coalesces around him will be more than he can control, it will control him.
The challenges facing Mankind are not physical or mental, the challenge is primarily spiritual. The leadership required is a spiritual leadership.
Political ambition needs ammunition.
Today, the ammunition boxes of the leaders of the crumbling dynasty are empty.
Uni = One
Bi = Two
Am(m)-uni-tion has been stolen to feed the am-bi-tion of notable “Viziers from the Alladin Story” for centuries of recorded history.
In World War Two, Hitler stole the paraphernalia of Nietsche, Sanskrit swastikas, the Spear of Destiny etc as occult ammunition. Marx was stolen, is still being stolen and adulterated into a power mad impossibility of dynastic governance.
Ambitious capitalists scrabble around the Keynsian, the John Stuart Millsian, the tattered Judeo-Christian theological justifications and ultimately the frankenstein Masonic global movement of fraternal initiations into secret knowledge – to justify the unjustifiable worship of Their Golden Calf.
The ambitions of divide and rule are today desperate for the spiritual vision to power their machinations.
Their magazines are empty.
In the recent presidential election in the Empire of this era, there were no spiritual voices, no poetry at the bombastically inept inauguration.
I am God’s dry powder, the last ammo box.
(amo, amas, amat, amamus, amatis, amant)

Best Leaders

The best leaders, none know that they’re even there according to Lao Tzu, a Chinese source many thousands of years old of mysterious personal lineage. Tony Benn a not quite so ancient UK past politician was keen to quote Lao Tzu on the subject of leadership, and any search engine will soon land a seeker upon quotes from both.

President Donald J. Trump does not come any where near the paragon of leadership according to Lao Tzu and Tony Benn, but he is mentioned on the Lao Tzu leadership scale that you can find on the Internet, you can orientate President Trump on the scale for yourself.

I am personally grateful to President Trump already, for I have found my inner character component that most reacts to him, that is of course therefore most like him. So, I am attending to my inner Donald J. Trump in an integrative and firmly loving way, confident that this inner work is entirely possible.

The more that my inner work is attended to, the less the impact of the klaxon blaring of the news media affects me. I am secure in the sanity of knowing that none of this mass drama is new at all in the news sense. I am returned to the topic that has been the constant thread to my work since 1997, that as Carl Jung rightly predicted in the 1930s, no change to Humanity is possible through mass governmental processes.

The vacuum of meaning in the disinformation and propaganda machinations of the global money and geopolitical theatrics is so ubiquitous that it takes a real effort of remembrance to not get sucked into the fruitless, draining handwringing that is grist to the insanity mill that is the lot of the world’s leaders.

Their insanity is the Einstein definition of imagining that if they keep doing what they’ve always done, only louder, in a more threatening manner, in a more bullying manner, with bigger bombs, better spies, more money, bigger inauguration crowds than any Emperor has ever had in the history of insecure mad leaders who say that they only want to secure power for the Fatherland, the Motherland, the Holy Land and the Temple Precincts …. for the ordinary people …. that it will actually work this time.

There is very little I can do for anyone but me, my own soul. This is what I’m told in The Qur’an, this is what President Donald J. Trump has taught me to remember. I hear the collective Shakespearian voice of the idiot, signifying nothing, the louder that the media shouts the Empire’s proclamations …. the more that I remember my inner work, the easier it is to turn the idiot’s volume down.

Unfortunately for President Trump, even though he apparently takes the Lord Jesus Christ as his Lord and saviour according to an online preacher advocate of the President, The Christ of this era, Isa the Seal of Universal Sainthood as mentioned in Islam, as mentioned of every era, is more likely to be found with the “bad dudes”, the drunks and addicts, prostitutes, the homeless, the immigrants and refugees, the orphans and the outcasts …. than He is to be found in the US President’s plotting rooms, or any other global secret plotting palace.

He will, I’m sure, have knocked on their doors to let them know that He is here, as in every era, simply as a matter of courtesy and good manners. They will have missed the call 📞, too busy on another line probably.


When I was born, physically
…. a refugee in a strange land
Surviving intrinsically
By the love of a mother’s hands

Most of all know this

When I died, metaphysically
…. a refugee in a strange land
Surviving explicitly
Within the love of a High Command

Least of all know this

When I returned here impossibly
…. a refugee in a strange land
Surviving contradictadly
Despite the shifting times of sand

Least of all know this

When disaster knocked unavoidably
…. a refugee in a strange land
Surviving technically
The plighting of Almighty Hands

Most of all know this

God, I seek refuge in You, from You.