It is said on The Way that “Man proposes and God disposes”.
For me as ‘Abd al-Mu’min this is the living reality of my experience. There is a hadith that says that God fits into the heart of the believing servant.
So, as life poses problems for me, there is a constant flow of possible proposals for me to manifest as a consequence of engaging with life.
These arising proposals are at every level and aspect of my being without exception and with a total unconditional regard. These proposals encompass my physical/mental/spiritual presence and are led only by my certainty of union and conscious contact with God as the experiential fact of my life.
This fact of my conscious contact with God is unassailable but is testable from moment to moment in terms of my inner experience and my manifestation of mental activity and physical action. This fact is embodied in Step 11 of a 12 Step Programme.
“Sought through prayer and meditation to improve our conscious contact with God, as we understood Him, praying only for knowledge of His will for us and the power to carry that out.”
Thankfully God disposes of His presence in my heart and the extreme limits of my awareness are held in a function of peace and relative possibility so as to make my service possible and bearable, not only for me but also for those to whom I am brought into contact.
This post then contextualises the years of writing that is patently embracing of a message of messianic proportions, but without having to join the queues of disintegrated messianic function that presents itself for treatment in the psychiatric offices of the global health care systems on a daily basis.
My exterior function is integrated in that prayer of Muhammad (pbuh), “O God, I seek refuge in You, from You.”
I am open to any rôle that is possible for me to manifest for God in His/Her/Its creation. I do not crave any particular rôle however, even though the reality of my presence connects the highest with the lowest as may be generally understood by Mankind.
There is not much more for me to say about me personally or explicitly that can expose any further the implicit message that my writings have conveyed over these past few years. The reader can take what suits them and leave what does not, without worry that there is anything to be missed that may be somehow needed.
Events in this physical world on Earth are not what they immediately appear to be, especially at this time of juncture between eras. My posts and communications will attempt to convey the strength and hope that is the antidote to my personal experience, the reality of the protection granted to me by my being who I am.
For you to be able to come to believe in your own Higher Power is the only reason for my writing.
Thus although my writing and talking exposes myself to a scrutiny that is utterly unnecessary for my certainty of and service toward One Love in action that is Life Itself, yet as a catalyst it may be utterly necessary for you to have read or heard it, if your belief in yourself is to become reconnected with what you know of yourself.
“Man proposes, God disposes.”